endlessness

will i ever be able to see you without cringing?

will it ever go away?

is it possible to wish the best for you and leave it at that?

the healing process is more than begun. but its such a strange thing to experience. words cannot explain or describe how you can feel so past something, yet be in it all at the same time. who knew?

im so thankful to have found that there is so much more than that.

that there is hope. there is another chapter. there is a better ending that was unthought of by me. i love it.

still, its so uncomfortable knowing scars will remain. but comforting knowing pain will not. at least thats how it seems. so wierd. so unpredictable. so indescribable. im just sitting back and watching, just a small part of something huge. something bigger than any of us ever knew existed.